Tuesday, April 23, 2024

An Unexpected Turn of Events

4/23/2024

Last Friday, unexpectedly and shockingly, my husband was let go from his job after almost 13 years. The reason given was budget cuts (or as I like to say, Bidenflation.) His boss didn't even have an idea it was happening. We had no warning, no idea and are totally unprepared. 

Since it happened, it has been a roller coaster of emotions and mini panic attacks. One moment, I feel that surely God has something better for us and maybe we will be better off than before. The next minute, I'm crying in my coffee (or in a hockey rink) because I am overwhelmed and the fear and anxiety is just too much to bear.  

Honestly, I'm a mess. In my head, I know God will take care of us. But I just can't get ahold of my emotions right now. After everything we have been through this last year, I just cannot comprehend this. Though, I do admit I have been praying for change to come, but I meant maybe just moving to a new house. I had no idea our whole life would be upended. I guess it's true to be careful what you pray for!

Prayers would be appreciated. We have no idea where we are going or what we are doing. Please pray for guidance and that he would find a job sooner rather than later. And if you know any open jobs in software/digital engineering, please let us know.

Worn by Tenth Avenue North

I'm tiredI'm wornMy heart is heavyFrom the work it takes to keep on breathing
I've made mistakesI've let my hope failMy soul feels crushedBy the weight of this worldAnd I know that You can give me restSo I cry out with all that I have left
Let me see redemption winLet me know the struggle endsThat You can mend a heart that's frail and torn
I want to know a song can riseFrom the ashes of a broken lifeAnd all that's dead inside can be reborn'Cause I'm worn
I know I needTo lift my eyes upBut I'm too weakLife just won't let upAnd I know that You can give me restSo I cry out with all that I have left
Let me see redemption winLet me know the struggle endsThat You can mend a heart that's frail and torn
I want to know a song can riseFrom the ashes of a broken lifeAnd all that's dead inside can be reborn'Cause I'm worn
And my prayers are wearing thinI'm worn even before the day beginsI'm worn I've lost my will to fightI'm worn so heaven so come and flood my eyes
Let me see redemption winLet me know the struggle endsThat You can mend a heart that's frail and torn

I want to know a song can riseFrom the ashes of a broken lifeAnd all that's dead inside can be rebornYes, all that's dead inside will be rebornThough I'm wornYeah, I'm worn