Confirmed - Here we go again

September 11, 2026

Yesterday, I got the call. The confirmation of my 3rd cancer. Olfactory Neuroblastoma, Grade III. The plan is to have a detailed MRI and appointment with my two surgeons (Head and Neck surgeon and Neurosurgeon) on Friday, September 25th and then surgery on Monday, September 28th at MD Anderson. Then radiation treatment for 6 weeks, Mon-Fri, which means I will have to temporarily move down to Houston for 6 weeks, most likely sometime in November into December. I spoke to my doctor's PA and even though it is a grade 3, she said this type of cancer is usually slow-growing and seemed to think that they can get it all out with surgery. Once radiation is done, I can put it all behind me, she says. I wish I was feeling that optimistic. But after a while, all the treatments and the constant not feeling good begins to wear on a person. At least I know why I still don't feel great, even after my breast cancer treatment was completed. 

Even though I feel like I was expecting it, I'm still struggling with it. I am overwhelmed. I don't know why I have to go through this again. I keep wondering, what lesson didn't I learn the last time that I have to go through this all again? The good thing about going to MD Anderson is they will be scheduling all my appointments so I won't have to worry about that. The bad thing is that I will have to arrange hotel or airbnb/vrbo visits and eventually plan an extended stay somewhere for when I have radiation. I am worried about the travel and the money since I will have to take off those weeks from work and most likely will have to pay to stay somewhere. But I also feel good about my decision to go to MD Anderson because I feel confident in their abilities to treat me and hopefully, get me back to healthy.

One other thing I was told during the call was that the Pet scan showed uptake in my left breast and that I should follow up with my doctor at Texas Oncology about that. The funny thing is that I had access to the pet scan results but I didn't even realize it said this because I was so focused on the head and neck (I also have a lesion on my spine at the back of my neck). I have sent the results over to my doctor here at Texas Oncology. He called me right away and said he thinks it is just residual from all the treatment I had done but he would order a mammogram for me, just in case. I really pray that that cancer is not back, as well. I'm not sure I can handle it. 

Anyway, that is all the updates. The next two weeks, I will be preparing for the surgery. It is scary because it is so close to the brain so that makes me nervous. But I have to trust the surgeons know what they are doing and will be able to get everything out. I am also just so weary, like my bones just feel heavy. It all seems so unbelievable. But there is nothing more I can do but trust God and His plan, whether that means live another 30 years or if my time here is limited. It's all up to Him. And so, that just means I have to be more intentional with how I live going forward. 

"If all roads lead to Rome, who am I to try and change it? who am I to try and change it? If all roads lead to Rome, I know better than to try and play God. I'll leave the big man to the big jobs."

All Roads by Abby Urkawich

25 “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27 And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?

Matthew 6:25-27

2 more days at MD Anderson and now, the waiting

September 7, 2026

My second day as a new patient at MD Anderson was on Thursday, Sept 2nd and was much like the first. We were up around 4am so we could get to the hospital for my 6am pet scan. Unfortunately, the hotel shuttle service didn't start until 6:30am so we had to park in the garage at MD Anderson. After my pet scan, I had back to back appointments scheduled: Radiation oncology at 9:30am, oral oncology at 10:30am, pre-op anesthesia at 11:00am and lastly, medical oncology at 2pm. The radiation doctor took so long, it pushed all the other appointments back at least an hour. I think I was done with them about 1:15pm which gave us just enough time to eat something at the cafeteria and make it in time for the medical oncologist. We met many people and talked about past medical records, current symptoms and what possible treatment might look like assuming the cancer was indeed olfactory neuroblastoma. Obviously all the information we got was based on what the biopsy scheduled for the next day might say and was subject to change based on those results. It was a very long, exhausting day. We also walked a lot! We went the wrong way to get to the garage we parked in and didn't realize it until we were almost to the other side of the hospital. That's my "great" directional sense. After we got back to the hotel, we rested a little and then got ready to go to a nice dinner. Everything we mapped was going to take so long to get to because Houston traffic is terrible! We decided on Longhorn Steakhouse in Pearland because it said it was going to take the shortest time, not realizing it was because it was taking us the express lanes. But we got there quickly and had nice dinner with a wonderful 19 year old server. Then we ran into JC Penney's so I could find some comfortable pants to wear the next day to my surgical biopsy. I spent the rest of the night getting all my medical papers organized and put away. And then took a shower with my special soap before bed and again, the next morning. 

My biopsy surgery was scheduled for a check in time of 12pm the following day. We decided to take the hotel shuttle this time because parking the day before cost almost $20 since we had been there over 12 hours. The ride there was fine and we got there very early. Unfortunately, I couldn't eat so we just hung out and waited until it was time to check in. The way it works is you check in and then you sit and wait in the waiting area until they are ready for you. Some of the people sitting in the waiting area were there for an hour before us and still were not called back while we were there. I think they called me back around 1:30pm. Once I was back in a room, they got me prepped pretty quickly and got me into surgery. From my understanding, it only took about 30 minutes for the procedure, but they had a hard time waking me up so I was in recovery for a while. They had to go and talk to my sister and tell her the information because they said I kept falling asleep. Haha. I'm not sure what anesthesia they used but it clearly wasn't the right one. Once I was finally awake in recovery, I got really nauseous and threw up. This never happens to me after surgery! But my sister was able to get the nausea meds they prescribed picked up and then once I was stable, they released me. Then came the worse ride of my life. We had to take the hotel shuttle back to the hotel. Only the van was quite full and they had to actually turn a couple people away and come back for them. I was still groggy and nauseous. And instead of going straight to the hotel, people on the van were going to Walgreens, Target and then finally the hotel. The roads in Houston are so bad and bumpy and I was so nauseous the whole time. It was awful! But finally we got back to the hotel and decided to order in for dinner. We had pizza from a local restaurant delivered and it was good. Of course, I was so hungry I ate way too much and wound up throwing up again. But after that, I was able to rest and go to sleep for the night. I felt much better in the morning. We were able to have breakfast at the hotel and then get our stuff packed up for our drive back to my house in Irving. The drive was mostly uneventful, the only interesting thing was Buc-ees in Madisonville was closed due to losing power so we were a little disappointed. But we were able to stop at the one in Ennis so all was right again. 😀

The pet scan showed only the nasal cavity as possibly being malignant so that was reassuring that there isn't more going on, at least. We should hear about the biopsy this week. Since Monday (today) is a holiday, it is going to delay the results a little and then all the doctors get together every Thursday for big meetings where they discuss their cases. They will be discussing my case this Thursday and will call me with the biopsy results and the plan they have come up with for me. It is hard waiting. But based on all my conversations throughout the week, I already have a good idea of what the plan will be. First, I will have surgery in the next month, then 6 weeks later, I will need to go down to Houston for 6 weeks for radiation, Monday-Friday. Depending on the results, I may have to have chemo at this time, as well, but I am praying this is not the case. Obviously, this will be a hard time since I will have to move down there for those 6 weeks and we will have to figure all that. But for now, it's back to real life until I hear what's next. 

 

A New Patient at MD Anderson in Houston - Day One

September 1, 2026

Today, was my first day as a patient at MD Anderson. Because my husband wasn't able to come with me, my sister put her own life aside and thankfully was able to come do this with me. After not much sleep, we were up at 3am to get ready for the 4 hour drive to Houston. We left at 4am. We stopped one time at a Texas staple, Buc-ees. I was shocked to learn she had never even heard of it! She was in awe and called it a Wawa on steroids (she lives in Pennsylvania). 

Even though we hit a lot of morning traffic in Houston, which really just seems to be because whoever designed the roadways there was on drugs at the time or just really hates people, we made pretty good time. We pulled up to MD Anderson at around 8:45am. I think it was at this point we learned about the storm heading towards us, that could possibly turn in to a hurricane and honestly we thought that sounds about right. LOL

My first and main appointment of the day was to meet a doctor, Dr. Ehab Hanna, that is a specialist in my suspected cancer, olfactory neuroblastoma. After getting checked in (early), we had some waiting to do. But then they called me first to get my vitals and go over some history with a nurse. After being brought into another room, I gave my many pages of documents I brought including those from my thyroid cancer, breast cancer, genetic testing, other scans I had in the last two years and an overall timeline of  my health through all these things. They took them to have them scanned in. Then, we met one of his PA's. She was very sweet and patient to answer any questions we had. She did an endoscopy into each of my sinuses, and she videoed it for the doctors to see later. After doing this, she told us that I was in the right place and commended my decision to come to them first and to have them be with me throughout the entire process. While I know she meant it to be comforting, it made my stomach sink. Because I got the sense she had seen this before and knew that it looked like cancer. She spent a lot of time with us answering any questions. Because I feel like this took a long time, I think they must have swapped my appointment time with someone after me, because then we had to wait about 45 minutes or so for the doctor to come in the room. He came in and said, "3 cancers? You are an overachiever!" It made me laugh and also made feel a little sad. But he had a friendly demeanor. He explained that he feels that it is most likely olfactory neuroblastoma but of course it will have to be confirmed with a biopsy. He said they could have done a biopsy in the office with just some numbing but most likely it would just make me bleed and they would not get all the tissue that he would like to test. So, it is set up for me to be put under and do the biopsy in an operating room on Thursday 9/3 where they can have more control over the bleeding and the amount of tissue they can get. He said it is also possible it could be breast cancer that has spread and that would be a more challenging prognosis. After we asked if it was possible at all if it could be benign, he said it's not impossible but I could tell he didn't think this was the case. After this, I asked him if he had seen the MRI of the neck I had and the finding that there was a lesion on my spine at the back of my neck. He said he did and that he recommends I have a full body pet scan which they will get scheduled while I am here this week. He also explained that they have set up all my appointments to meet all the doctors I might possibly need in my possible treatment while I am here. Depending on the results, I may need to see them again and I may not. But if it turns out I don't need them, I would have just met some "nice guys". Haha.

After meeting with the doctor, we were taken to patient education. There they explained how I would prepare for the biopsy since it would in essence be a surgery type biopsy since I would be put under anesthesia. She also told me that they will be scheduling a pet scan and you have to fast for 6 hours before so not to eat until this test is scheduled in case they want me to come back this evening to have it done. Based on when I ate last, the earliest they could do it is at 5pm tonight. 

After this, I went to the lab to do bloodwork. They tested for my blood type (B+) and did a CBC and lots of other tests I have never had done, most having to do with hormone levels. I was getting notifications of these results coming in over the next hours. I'm not sure when someone will go over them with me. After labs, we sat and waited to see if I might get a notification about the pet scan. But eventually decided to leave so we could check into the hotel and get some rest before I may have to come back. At this point, I am feeling so tired and overwhelmed.

Once we got into the hotel room, I got notification about my pet scan was scheduled for Friday morning. Ugh, we were planning to drive home Friday, but since it was early in the morning, we would still do that afterwards. We decided to get something to eat because I am getting hangry. As we are driving there, I get a notification that the pet scan has been moved to tomorrow at 6am! This is before my already full day of appointments meeting 3 new doctors and a pre-surgical appointment for my biopsy. At this point we are so overwhelmed and overtired, that we just bust out into a fit of hysterical laughing. I am definitely feeling the silly kind of tired where everything is funny. Of course, this means that we won't be able to take the shuttle the hotel offers to my appointments tomorrow because they don't start until 6:30am. So now we will be paying for parking at MD Anderson. Not a huge deal I guess, but just another stressor. We wonder, why isn't the parking for cancer patients free??

Now, lets talk about notifications. I would say one of MD Andersons strengths is communication, which truly I do appreciate. It's one of the things that has severely been lacking in my previous treatments. But I would also say that it can also be so stressful to be getting so many messages and updates throughout a day. Since I called MDA to become a new patient there has not been a day that I have not received some sort of message, reminder or communication. I gave them the information and they took my test results and history and decided on who I should see and when. Sometimes they would make an appointment and then it would get changed so sometimes it's hard to keep up! For example they scheduled one for me to see the medical oncologist next week because it was the soonest she had an opening, I assume. I was bummed but what could I do? Then today, I got a message that they were able to move it to tomorrow so I don't have to come back next week, which I appreciated. But the sheer volume of messages and notifications I am getting, especially today while they were trying to work to get all my tests and appointments set AND all my blood test results were coming in can definitely be overwhelming! But I would much rather that be the case than the alternative. And they truly are working to get everything set for me in a way that is most efficient and to not waste too much time. 

Tomorrow will be an even more full and exhausting day, with a pet scan at 6am, then appointments at 9:30am (radiation), 10:30am (oral oncologist), 11am (pre-op appt), and 2pm (medical oncologist). I was already so tired and we have another early morning, needing to wake up about 4am tomorrow. I tried to go to sleep at 5:30pm (ridiculous, I know) but woke up a little over and hour later and have been writing this ever since. I am so overwhelmed and and anxious and my stomach hurts. We laughed a lot today, which was nice. But when all is said and done, I am scared and not looking forward to all the things I may have have to do not just this week, but in the future. I am definitely struggling with the weight of it all. But tomorrow is a long day so I need to get back to sleep. I am thankful for all the prayers and messages I have received in the last few days. 

Jesus, have my heart, my will, my soul
Jesus, have my hopes, my dreams, my world
With joy, I lay it down
With joy, I cast my crowns
Jesus, have it all

To You, I bring my praise, my lips, my song
A living sacrifice as one reborn
Your life is now my own
Your will is what I want
Jesus, have it all

Jesus, have it all
Jesus, have it all
To You belongs the glory
The praise of all the world
Jesus, have it all
Jesus, have it all
All blessing and all honor
All majesty and awe
Jesus, have it all

Yeah, all my days
All my life
Have it all
All my days
All my life
Have it all
Have it all

Have all my days
Take all my life
Have it all, ay
Yes, all my days
And all my life
Have it all, oh
Oh Jesus, have it all

Jesus, Have It all by Jeremy Riddle, performed by Bethel Music